12 JUNE 2013

Ya ALLAH, permudahkan perjalanan ku untuk mencapai apa yang dicita-citakan.

Amin.

Since I've got what I desperately want, I should do my very best. I have this chance to study again, so have to do well. Good luck ARINA! Have faith. 

Mak, take care. Jangan sakit-sakit gik. Please. Will miss you.

P/s : ByeBye Bintulu. Hello Kuala Lumpur :)

Bad Girl

Hi. Assalamualaikum.

This is really a rough time for you when you really need someone to do things and spoken up for you but then there is no one. Everything I do, I do it myself, without anyone. Like my mum said, I am her one and only child that is overly independent. Doing everything and anything alone, without her help. Maybe I need her help sometimes but yes. I'm the one that doesn't really need any help from others. Even in my kindy days, I did the registration all by myself. Haha. 4 years old kid plus a girl doing the registry by herself. Even though, I'm still good working in a group. Hehe. Angkat bakul sendiri. 

Then, when I'm known as Miss Independent, now everyone around me gonna make sure that I do my job nicely. Alone. Sometimes, I felt like I also need someone doing things for me. But perfectly attach with that name will definitely make me end up doing things alone, again. Huh. Sigh.
However, doing things myself really got me a highly self-respect to myself. Sometimes we need to be independent because its not like everyone could be on our side when we need them. Since I'm getting overly used to it, I'm still can breath calmly although been on a very rough path. Now, in my situation, its not really need me to be independent but I need someone to discuss with.
Without my mum besides me, I've decided not to enroll into UNITEN because of some reasons. First of all, I'm offered into Bachelor of Computer and Communication Engineering which is basically studying about electronics and a lil bit of electric. I'm okay with mechanics, thermo, automotive, fluids, and even robotics but not for electric and electronic. So, I'm giving up that offer letter and waiting for others. Hope for getting into UiTM again and getting an offer into Mechanical Engineering. I don't really care if need to study for another 4 years (total of 7 years + Diploma) if I really can get into Mech Eng :) Amin.

P/S : Watch Lee Hyori with her comeback song, Bad Girl. She's hot. A totally gorgeous. Her m/v is great! :)

Perfect way for me

Hi! Assalamualaikum.

Going back to school life which is not logic but a perfect way for me. Trust me, I miss the moments when wake up early in the morning, grab my uniform, having breakfast with family, going to school soooo early, talking at the back of the class with some fabulous friends, studying something that hard but acceptable, doing homework on the deadline, being a prefect that way toooooo perfect *laaa sangat*, lepak-lepak even not in a right time, and being friend with everyone! Yes! Everyone. I did having friends from different religions, races, classes, and families. I do love that moments when everyone is not really care about looks and standards. I'm not in a prestige school, not the best school and even not a great school. Just ordinary secondary school located in Bintulu, Sarawak. However, FYI, I'm proudly say that my previous school is the largest school in Sarawak and has the most students in Malaysia. That is SMK Bintulu. Some of my friends and senior also becoming one of the best students in Malaysia and now pursuing their study abroad. Being the alumni of this school is just great and cool. Proudly say. Haha. Well, I think I have brag enough. Okay, enough! :)

Going back to school just not make sense unless I'm being a teacher or working in that school but no-no. Every moments of my breath in SMKB will be my precious memories ever. Well, perfect Iway for me? Aha! Study study study. Hm, it's just that I'm having a very hard time now being a human without any purpose of life. I'm not working, I'm not doing anything at home, and I'm not studying since I'm done with life! The heck. Haha. Can't I just study now, can I? Absolutely no-no. Hm, my life is cool but not in this particular moment. Thank you.

Yuhuu. I'm done!

Hai. It's been a while. Gosh, not really a while. It's been ages! Probably my addiction in blogging is fading away. It's not really addiction but I do loves to write. Maybe today, I've just got that feeling, again. Nothing much to brag since nothing awesome happen in my life since then. However, I should say that I'm officially a Diploma holder now. That one of the biggest things happen now. Yes, now. I've always say that I'm done with life but no. I'm struggling to get a seat for pursuing my study. Enough. I do like to pursue something that much related to physics. Since physics brought my result up up. Haha. Yes, definitely physics! I won't taking bio or any of its family anymore. And of course no for inorganic. I do really hate it. Haha. I'm taking this out since I'm free from it. Mechanical Engineering is always been my first choice since then. And definitely my first choice when I'm fill in for UPU but maybe its not my time, yet. DIS, Diploma In Science, the 8th choice or should I say the last choice (?), which I've been regretting until this moment by involve in it. However, I do my very best since I've got no other choice. Not applying for matriks, not getting into Form 6 and basically a NO for IPTS since I'm from just a so-so family. I did appeal for changing the course but it just not my time, yet. Then, I just let myself struggle more, continue to abuse my brain, killing myself again and again, year by year, and kkut! Wow, I'm done! Without having any real difficulties. What I mean that I did confront some hard time and difficulties but its more related to study and people which I'm getting them in every second of my life. So, there's nothing much. Just a little feeling of stressed and depressed. Since my result is already out, I should make my move. I'm not really into the feeling of getting semester's result since I know my result a week after my final paper except physics' result. I just prayed and give my all to completely having faith that I will get 3.00 pointer and above, again. Yes, I do. I do get 3.00, perfectly on its boundary. Kind of sad, I did my most in this final semester. However, Alhamdulillah. 

Congrats my friends! Now, we're officially a Diploma holder. In the term of our result only. Hehe. InsyaALLAH, our convocation will be soon! Now, I do feel a little bit shaky. Yeah, leaving all the sweet, bitter, salty and sour memories when studying with all my great and cool friends, lecturers and peoples that I got to know. I wish they will do well and having a great time ahead. Have faith, everyone! :)

We're to far from the curiosity of the first meeting, and now we're nearer to the rear of seperating. Goodbye, dear friends.