This mean so much to me

Assalamualaikum. Hi :)

Just had little conversation with my mama and that gave me a feeling that I can't deny. I miss them so much. It's not like I never been apart from them. I do have so. However, each time I go off, that feeling should come over and over again. 

Since my faculty's block is so so damn far away from everyone, my mama asked me to drive back her car at Terengganu and going back to KL.  I'm just okay with the fact that the block is too far since it's still in a walking distance. Just the route that I should take is scary and full of bushes. And I'm a girl. That's the fact! It's too dangerous for a girl to walk alone in that place. 

Actually, I should have been in bus, taking a trip to Terengganu at this moment. The problem that had just occurred is that there is no one can accompany me. Of course my mama wouldn't let me go, alone. 

Ho ha ho ha ho ha then come a decision from my ayah that is heartbreakingly real.

I do cry when my mama said that ayah took earlier plane to Kelantan and get into a bus to Terengganu tonight just to take that car and drive to KL alone tomorrow, which is the real situation is I'm the one who need that car, not him. And he just finished his don't-know-what-kursus at Johor today. I know, he's really tired and need to work again on Monday. I don't know why he did so much for me. I feel so cruel for letting him into a trouble because of me. For everything that you did for the past 15 years, I do really appreciate them. You do have your own problem, works, and need time for yourself but yet you did this for me. Thanks a lot, ayah :')

If people see how he treat me, they will say that he is really my real dad. Yes, he is my dad. I give all my love, care, respect and responsibilities as a child to her dad to him. I should. The reality is just unfair for me. And him. We're not really in a blood-relationship but just in a name. He is just my stepfather. But everything he did, took him into a very special place in my heart. He never been unfair to me, he do treat me the same as his own children, he never hesitate to give me money, to buy me something and he do proudly say to everyone that I'm his daughter. We're not really close but I do feel that I really have a very caring dad :)

Take care, ayah. Have a safe journey. Allah be with you. My doa will always be with you. 

Thank you...

9th Day

Assalamualaikum. Hi.

Wow, it’s my 9^th days in IUKL. Oh gosh. People, I’m in IUKL now. Getting into the Mechanical Engineering course which has been my very first dream before. Luckily, I’m not going into Swinburne. Hehe. What is IUKL stands for? It’s Infrastructure University Kuala Lumpur which is located at Kajang. It’s just directly beside UNITEN. I’ve decided to take this opportunity because of some factors. First, it’s Mechanical guys! I’ve desperately want to be in this so called family. Hehe. Second, IUKL is one of the top IPTS in Malaysia. Well, Engineering for future. Just look out for IUKL in Google and you’ll know. 5-tier SETARA, accreditation from MQA, and one of the recognised school of engineering or should I say faculty (?). Hehe. Third, it’s an interesting experience to be in a school of much culture variation. Since it’s an international school, there’s a lot of international students here. I’ve known people from Fiji Island, Qatar, India, Indonesia, Philippines, Arab Saudi and Nigeria. They’re so friendly and it’s not feel awkward at all.

Well said, it’s a very good decision to enrol in this school.

However, I do prefer to be in UiTM, again. Huhu. Please UiTM, I want you. Yes, YOU! Let me get into the faculty of Mech Eng. Please, I’m begging you. I love how we share, we care, we study, and how we get along together in UiTM. I do miss my friends and lecturers, the lecture, the place, kolej seri gading, Desa Ilmu, blok H and everything. Waa, definitely UiTM Di Hatiku :)

Byebye.

12 JUNE 2013

Ya ALLAH, permudahkan perjalanan ku untuk mencapai apa yang dicita-citakan.

Amin.

Since I've got what I desperately want, I should do my very best. I have this chance to study again, so have to do well. Good luck ARINA! Have faith. 

Mak, take care. Jangan sakit-sakit gik. Please. Will miss you.

P/s : ByeBye Bintulu. Hello Kuala Lumpur :)

Bad Girl

Hi. Assalamualaikum.

This is really a rough time for you when you really need someone to do things and spoken up for you but then there is no one. Everything I do, I do it myself, without anyone. Like my mum said, I am her one and only child that is overly independent. Doing everything and anything alone, without her help. Maybe I need her help sometimes but yes. I'm the one that doesn't really need any help from others. Even in my kindy days, I did the registration all by myself. Haha. 4 years old kid plus a girl doing the registry by herself. Even though, I'm still good working in a group. Hehe. Angkat bakul sendiri. 

Then, when I'm known as Miss Independent, now everyone around me gonna make sure that I do my job nicely. Alone. Sometimes, I felt like I also need someone doing things for me. But perfectly attach with that name will definitely make me end up doing things alone, again. Huh. Sigh.
However, doing things myself really got me a highly self-respect to myself. Sometimes we need to be independent because its not like everyone could be on our side when we need them. Since I'm getting overly used to it, I'm still can breath calmly although been on a very rough path. Now, in my situation, its not really need me to be independent but I need someone to discuss with.
Without my mum besides me, I've decided not to enroll into UNITEN because of some reasons. First of all, I'm offered into Bachelor of Computer and Communication Engineering which is basically studying about electronics and a lil bit of electric. I'm okay with mechanics, thermo, automotive, fluids, and even robotics but not for electric and electronic. So, I'm giving up that offer letter and waiting for others. Hope for getting into UiTM again and getting an offer into Mechanical Engineering. I don't really care if need to study for another 4 years (total of 7 years + Diploma) if I really can get into Mech Eng :) Amin.

P/S : Watch Lee Hyori with her comeback song, Bad Girl. She's hot. A totally gorgeous. Her m/v is great! :)