Get lost.

I don't even think that this update is necessary since I just wanna have some kind of 'luahan rasa' only. It's just, I want to write something.

Ever since the day I'm coming back to IUKL, everything is just fucked up. I hate that. I hate you girl. The thing is, we have settled down everything before I left. I have nothing to do with you guys anymore. It just doesn't make sense when you asked my friends to not talking to me anymore, forever. Who are you actually? Yes, I know, you do feel insecure. But please, don't be so pathetic. You do look like a 6 years old girl. Not you look but your personality. Too immature. Being nice to me, being good, always there with me but then now? Well now I know, you're hypocrite. Lessons learned girl. I won't be there anymore, promise. I will never ever going back to IUKL, again! Just, fuck off girl. Don't bother me anymore. You just annoyed me. Get lost and fuck yourself please. BYE!

Aku

Berilah kesempurnaan dalam aku mencintai yang tidak sempurna.

Aku mencintainya tanpa melihat kata 'sempurna'.

Aku mencintainya dengan segala keikhlasan hatiku.

Aku mencintainya dengan melihat agama, bukanlah fizikalnya.

Aku mencintainya dengan sebentuk cinta yang diriku punya.

Aku mencintainya tanpa melebihi rasa cintaku padaNya.

Aku mencintainya dengan melihat segala kelebihan dan kekurangan yang ada.

p/s : Mum, love you and miss you so much :')

Please, come back

Please come back, Rain.

          When I need you the most. To hide all my pain, with the tears that overflows.

          When I need you to cover up my sadness with a quick smile on my face.

          When I need you to give some noise to my lonely night.

Please come back, Sunshine.

          When I need you to be the beacon through my darkest night.

          When I need you to cheer me up since I'm down.

          When I need you to bright my day, forever and always.

Please come back, Home.

          When I need you to be my shelter through the highs and lows.

          When I need you to comfy me when I fall hard.

          When I need you to give me the warmest love.

Please come back, Smile.

          I've never feel so hard like this.

          Till I left you, and give ways to my tears.

          Should that you be my best friend. 

          I've been way to far, drowning in this life dramas.

          Then, I need you now to come back and going through all this together.

And this summer rose left blooming alone. All the lovely companion are faded and gone. 

Please, come back.

Hectic semester ever

Assalamualaikum. Hi everyone. 

Gosh, it's been a very very long time since the last update from me. Been busy? Yeah. Should say so. I've been going through the busiest semester ever. It's not over yet. I sit for my last paper on this coming Saturday. The next day, it's time for me to fly. Shiuuuuuu going back to Sarawak. Yay! Never been so excited as this. 

What should I say now? I'll be missing everyone that I met here. It's not like I'm going back forever. Ouch Arina, you're exaggerate much. Well, I've found someone who always been there for me even at 4AM. And he's a guy. Maybe because of his matured part of attitude makes me comfortable with him even though he is younger. He's not even 18 guys. Okay this November, yes. He's being nice, funny, protective and comfortable to be with. Guess what, he's the one that even know most of my secrets. It's not secrets anymore since he knows them. Friends said that I may fall for him. I guess never. I've treat him more like a sister to her lil brother. I just can't fall for him since I've had this crush that may last longer than I've expected. Reasons much now.

Gosh what should that be related to a hectic life Arina? Haha. Out of topic. Hm, let's us see. My busiest semester started of with mini project for one of my course. We'd be given about 2 weeks to settle it down and do the presentation with full technical report. Alhamdulillah, I've been through perfectly. Then, I've got this super duper hardcore course called Statics. I've never been in a situation that I've never understand what the lecturer taught. However, it's a past. I've been through the final examination for that paper and I cried, hard. The toughest paper ever. Pray for a pass. Pass should be enough. 

More, I've never like one of the courses which is Office Application where we need to learn about Microsoft  Office 2010. Yucks. Hell what? I could be using a computer/laptop but studying about it? Hm never been in my way before and after. Then, I need to learn about Engineering Drawing which all I can say, I'm suck in drawing. But, I love the lecturer. He's kind enough. And my final paper is drawing. Wuhuu. Need to score since it's quite simple. 

The most annoying thing I've ever encounter this semester is my application of credit transfer. Huh. I can't find any source of BEL and CTU weekly scheme. And even my former lecturer didn't help me. I know they've been busy. I think of settle it down when I'm going back for my convocation. Guys, my convocation is on 13 of November 2013. Kya! Can't wait. And thanks Allah for letting my mum going there with me. Keke. 

Since I've been through ups and down this few months back, I need to keep moving on. Keep strong. Keep holding on. I shouldn't give up. Things are made up for me. I must give my best for all. Gonna get this Bachelor's degree in 4 years time. InsyaAllah. Amin. 

Sometimes, the wrong path that we choose, leading us the the right way of choice. 

It's all in your hands. Either to keep it or let it go.

May Allah help us, always. :)